Axel, I read what you wrote and can only tell you from my own expirence. GOD forgives us when we sin and bring it before Him if we acknowledge the sin we committed. I find it also best to go to the person and ask their forgiveness also. They my not give you the time of day, but if you are sincere and you make the effort, you will have done the will of GOD. The rest lies on the shoulders of the one you asked forgiveness of. Then strive the best you can with the help of the HOLY SPIRIT to do the will of GOD. Then establish a relationship with JESUS CHRIST and allow Him to build that freindship. If you wronged someone 5 years ago and that has been a thorn, when you come to the knowledge of the LORD, you should ask for forgiveness from the LORD and from the person you wronged. This will leave you feeling in a way that only when you do this you will feel.( Washed is one way that it can be described.) So good luck my freind and my GOD bless you and your family. Always be honest with yourself and keep the relationship with GOD in the formost of your life